Day 45

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I go through phases, where I feel as if I have been here for forever or I feel as if I have only been here for a day. Sometimes, I feel overwhelmed by all that I have done and think I should be going home soon. Sometimes, I feel as if I have barely scratched the surface on all I have done and can’t wait to do more. That is not surprising, as time is relative. With that in mind, it’s no wonder PCVs have already started pairing off and/or hooking up. Don’t get it twisted, I’m not judging, I completely understand. being here, is similar to being in a time warp. What would take months in the states, will take weeks here. For instance, learning a new language. In a mere  6 weeks, I am able to communicate to someone in another language, without the help of English. That would not happen in the States. We are trained to stick close to what we know, thus the comfort zone. In a foreign place, with foreign language, food and culture, the only thing remotely similar to what we know are the people sitting beside us going through the exact same thing. Although, we look different, are from different states and probably have extremely different backgrounds, we understand the notion that rice was a meal you ate without beans and can sing along to the Kim Possible theme song with no shame. Sometimes, with all that’s new, you want to run to anything that can be called home or remind you of home. PCVs do that for each other. There is a PC statistic I read somewhere, it said, “80% of volunteers come back married, engaged or in love.”  That number isn’t exaggerated. We’ve only been here a month and a half, literally half way through training and honestly, some days I just really need a hug. Not a church hug either, a full on, “you are not alone and I am here for you” kind of hug. In the states, I would hug my mom, or my best friend. But the reality is, they are not here. So who can I turn to? Eventually, if it’s not love, it’ll be something else and you’ll have to turn to your fellow PCVs to fill that empty space. When you need a hug, a joke, a ride or a drinking buddy, I can attest, there’s a PCV for that. 
Día 45
A veces me siento cómo que he vivido aquí una eternidad y otros veces me siento cómo que tengo aquí un día. Me siento abrumada por completar todo y creo que debo ir pronto mi casa. A veces estoy emocionada hago más. No es una sorpresa porque el tiempo cambia. Por eso, no me sorprendo cuando los voluntarios tienen relaciones. No estoy juzgando estando aquí me siento diferente. Lo qué tomaba meses en EE UU, toma semanas aquí. Por ejemplo, aprendiendo un idioma nuevo. En seis semanas, puedo comunicarme con alguien en otro idioma sin ayuda de inglés. Esto no hacía en EE UU. Estamos calificados para seguir en nuestra zona cómoda. En un lugar diferente, con idioma diferente, comida, y cultura, la única cosa similar es la gente con nosotros. Aunque miramos diferente, estamos diferente y tenemos diferentes historias, entendemos que arroz es una comida sin frijoles y podemos cantar Kim posible que sin vergüenza. A veces con todo nuevo queremos correr a cualquiera familiar o a un hogar similar. Los voluntarios de Cuerpo de Paz hace que el uno al otro. Hay una estadística leé algún lugar que dije “80% de voluntarios regresaron casado, comprometido o en amor.“ Vivimos un mes y medio, literalmente a la mitad de entrenamiento y honradamente algunos días necesito un abrazo. Quiero un abrazo que dice,“ no está sola y estoy aquí para ti“. En EE UU, abraba a mi madre o mi mejor amigo pero en realidad ellos no están aquí. Entonces quién más? Finalmente, so no hay amor, y algo más y necesita usar voluntarios compañeros.  Cuando usted necesita un abrazo, una broma, un paseo, o un compañero de copas, hay un voluntario para eso. 
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