Monthly Archives: October 2014

50 Shades Freed Review

Bbbrrruuuhhhh anybody catch the irony that Ana thinks she’s so bland yet guys are trying to kill her now husband because she disses them!? #ohtheirony
So the lovers are off, floating high that Christian hadn’t died in recent events, has made an honest woman out of Anastasia and are on like a month long honeymoon around the world. How lucky? Yes. C money don beefed up security cuz he knows something amiss. Unlike the previous books the final of the trilogy takes on more of a mystery feel than a romance novel. I like it. There is action and sorrow but great happiness. We finally delve into the layers of Christian as he deads the ghosts of his past once and for all. I love that the sex has toned down and that the story is now the actual story (newsflash: sex is not an actual plot). I loved the ending. Christian is a reflection of us all; truly jacked up in some way. We are all fifty shades of something. You decide what though. They lived happily ever after and got everything both of them ever dreamed of: Christian finally forgave himself and accepted the love and Ana got true love and a family. Truly 4/5 stars. This will do well in theaters. I’m actually salty because underneath it all is really a beautiful love story. Ana really did teach that man how to love and how to accept himself. She didn’t change herself for him. They both opened to each other. There’s something to be said about that. Be careful dear readers, lest you be ensnared like me. I really thought it’d be bad but apart from wordiness and unnecessary sex scenes it has a plot! EL better prepare his academy speech.

I am glad I am finished. The measure of a good author is the ability to make you persevere to the end. No matter the reasoning you gotta love a page turner and this was it, despite it’s serious lack of legitimate facts and conversation. What are your thoughts? Did you enjoy? Are you glad it’s over. Tell me all below.

A Word to My Ex Chronicles

Today is the last day of my mini series “A Word to My Ex” Chronicles. It was liberation but very scary to share. I am glad I did if it means at least one person was liberated as well. I hope ya’ll shared it, hashtagged and @me on your posts. I appreciate the support WHEN you credit the source. I want to end on a bang so here it is. My final word to my ex. I hope you enjoy and as always RSC (read share comment). Thank you. 
A Word to My Ex Chronicles
This is goodbye
I have to remove my hands because God is slamming this door shut
I don’t want Him to break my hand
In the Bible, there is a story of a Shepard
who breaks the legs of His lamb
to prevent it from wandering off,
but because He loves the lamb so much
He carries it around on His shoulders until the lamb’s legs are healed
I don’t need hurt to be the reason I draw closer to God
He already gave me the answer to my question about you
He said, “no.”
I’m sorry, you have to go
 My Daddy doesn’t approve of you

A Word to My Ex Chronicles

A Word to My Ex Chronicles
I stripped for you
Layer by layer I bared my soul
I gave you my bitterness
I exchanged sadness
I laid down my burdens
My past was swept away
My jacket of shame on the floor
Scarf of insecurity on the chair
and makeup full of false notions of beauty wiped cleaned
I unhooked bags of hurts and threw it on the bed
There was no room for you in my jeans because they were stuffed with hidden imperfections
Flaws I finally accepted lay in pools I stepped out one foot at a time,
Looking for you to love me now whole
But you were at the door, unwilling to see me no longer unsure
You were so used to loving me rough, with edges that cut you deep
So adverse to the idea of me healing you the way God did me
So we parted
And I hope one day you find what I have: peace

A Word to My Ex Chronicles

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A Word to My Ex Chronicles
By accepting we were not meant to be
I liberated myself and you to accept our royalty
My crown was beginning to slip
In letting go of your hand I could raise my own fist
I will fight for myself
I won’t settle for less
and I hope in this separation you also find yourself
Most importantly find God
He already wrote the script,
we just have to play our part

A Word to My Ex Chronicles

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A Word to My Ex Chronicles 
You thought!
You lost!
And everybody knows almost doesn’t count 
No take backs
It’s better this way.
TRUST ME
Now is your chance since you didn’t when we were together

A Word to My Ex Chronicles

It’s been a week but we still have a few more days to go. Hope you’re enjoy so far! As always: Read. Comment. Share. Thank you!
A Word to My Ex Chronicles
It took me a while to get why you wouldn’t call
I always had to call you… 
It’s because you didn’t miss me
I finally figured out why you didn’t miss me.
It’s because I wasn’t in your destiny
Then it finally hit me. 
If I wasn’t in your destiny, why was I forcing myself in your present? 
Thanks for the lesson. 
I needed it. 
Somebody had to teach me: don’t stay where you’re unappreciated 

A Word to My Ex Chronicles

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A Word to My Ex Chronicles
You sitting next to me in the pew did not and does not give validity to our relationship
God knows your heart
and He showed me you were playing charades
two words
six letters
what I want you to do…
GET OUT.
Game over.
I’m not playing anymore.
You’re taking space that could be occupied by my Adam 

A Word to My Ex Chronicles

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A Word to My Ex Chronicles 
Your mouth was steady saying one thing 
While your body did something else
You’re a liar
That’s exactly why we ain’t together
You thought you could seduce my body 
But I was not blind to see
Everything and nothing with you lined up
You insisted there was only me but had an abundance of juice in your cup
You don’t have a fear of commitment
That is just another lie
You have a fear of committing to the wrong one, so you sample each
Too much candy baby, that’s how you get cavities

A Word to My Ex Chronicles

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A Word to My Ex Chronicles
I have to give you a round of applause
you stuck with me when I was scavenging for myself 
I’ve been told I ran you away
and that isn’t true
we both had a hand in walking away
but our friendship isn’t dead
for that I’m thankful 
we were just two good people, who found the other 
we were good
but we weren’t great
we put in four years of work 
because there was no reason to leave and so many to stay
realizing we were too afraid to say it wasn’t working should have been enough
but we made it out 
I went my way, seeing the world and taking advantage of my selfish years
and you have gone your way, finding happiness in the places I could not stay
Even still, you’ll always be my boo bear

A Word to My Ex Chronicles

Today is the day! The start of a Word to My Ex Chronicles. Let’s get right to it. Let me know if this speaks to you in the comments below. PS. This is series is not a man bashing session. This is me sharing my heart and experiences. I have experienced heartbreak but I have experienced love too.

A Word to My Ex Chronicles
I would never give myself the 
satisfaction of fully articulating how deeply you hurt me 
for fear you will feel 
exactly how bad you made me feel
l don’t want to hurt you back
I never
wanted to hurt you
I’ve always wanted to 
love you 
I always wanted to be
yours
I always wanted to be
your girl
and I never took consideration of anything else
delusion made me see past
her
fantasy made me see a space for me
when there was none
and your daughter was just a bow on our present
there was nothing
anointed by God
I took Him in 
my life and placed Him in ours
Maybe if I had listened He wouldn’t have
forced me to learn such a lesson as this
I cannot force my puzzle piece where it does not belong
maybe you were supposed to 
hurt me
maybe cutting me down to nothing was
worth it
because I will definitely
never do anything like you again
the memories
run through my mind,
a kaleidoscope of
hope, heartbreak and exasperation
realizing how
happy you made me 
only to turn around a
reject me publicly
no one should live in
extremes
I
was never meant to be a side
I was
never comfortable with it 
wanting to stop the hurt but being unable to stop the love for you was my only fault
running as fast as i could away from you only to 
snap back like a rubber band rebounding on you harder than before 
until I
broke the cord
unhooked myself
from you and gave it to God